I was taking Adderall over my prescribed dose, and I knew I wanted to get off of it. It took me about six months to find the right place. I wanted to be nurtured. I didn’t want to be beaten down. I didn’t want to be told what to do and how to do it and I really wanted some place where rest and nurture was the premise – and love, because I knew that was where I’m going to find healing.
One of the things that helped me to come to the conclusion to stay here for 90 days, when I was only going to be here for 30 days, is that I thought that in the grand scheme of life and all the time there is, 90 days is so small and what I can benefit from that can catapult, I can re-write the story of the rest of my life.
My overall experience being here was incredible, absolutely amazing. The transformation I made from how I arrived to this point is that I’ve really got an incredible outlook on my future and am extremely happy. I feel like I could smile for the rest of my life. It has just been an incredible journey here.
I really felt lost, hopeless and weak when I arrived and overall really down on my whole life. Now, I feel incredibly empowered and strong. I just really see the future being very bright and kind of a very happy place.
Some of the main differences that I’ve found here compared to some other rehabs are that here it is not just continuously focused on, ‘Don’t do drugs’, and ‘Don’t do drugs’. It is more focusing on growth within myself, my spirit and body.
You’ve got really innovative and risk taking leadership—you’re doing work that mainstream doesn’t do; you have a high standard. I think that is spectacular.
Before I came to The Exclusive, my life was spiraling down like you wouldn’t believe. I was drinking close to one liter of scotch a day and my wife and kids were ready to leave me. I was feeling worthless and depressed.
At The Exclusive I learnt that alcohol wasn’t my real problem, my real problem was things inside me, some beliefs inside me that were hurting me bad enough to where I felt that I had to go and escape through the bottle of alcohol and once I started uncovering those truths, it was pretty amazing the way I started feeling and realizing that, that’s true. Although I know I would never drink alcohol again, I now have the tools that I was taught here at the center, how to really deal with life in a more positive way, where I no longer beat myself up and I’m a lot happier.
The main difference in dealing with my eating disorder before and then coming to The Exclusive is when I entered The Exclusive that it was such a safe environment for me. I just felt so comfortable, so safe and so cared for. I love all that. It was just truly unimaginable. To be accepted as I was, just me, everything, the good and the bad, everything about me, just be accepted completely in such a loving, caring and nourishing way, it was truly incredible and it was the first time in my life I had ever really felt that.
The Exclusive has reawakened the life that was always inside of me that my eating disorder kept bound in me. I’m thankful for the awareness I have that my eating disorder kept me in a place of such shame that would just feed me more shame, and more shame.
I love every single one of the staff members that work at The Exclusive, from the cook to the land therapist, to the acupuncturist to all the different team members on the therapy team. Every single person, no matter what level of involvement they have with you personally in your recovery, makes such an incredible impact. I can’t tell you how much self-worth I gained just from watching and talking with the cook in the kitchen while she was cooking dinner.
Every staff member here is able to give you such valuable lessons and tools of their own. To me it’s like this well rounded holistic program and you get different special gifts from each one of the staff members here, and they care, they care so deeply about you.